... lost

you know, there are some times... when things go wrong, and you know it's your fault... but you can't help it?

there are times, when the person whom you love cries, and you are unable to be there to comfort him?

there are times, when you want to be with the person you love, but he can't be there for you?

these are times you try, again and again...


If there is anything I hate NS more for, is for its blatant, unrepentent ability to tear two people apart. Shred hearts asunder and shatter relationships...

Its a forgone fact that relationships are ruined in the face of being drafted by the SAF, even the banner fluttering at the front of the BMTC warbles -

"Its not what you leave behind, but what you gain in the days ahead."

they even have the cheek to post a picture of a guy and a girl parting ways.


... you simply have to hate the army for that...

I have so many, many commitments to make, my life is currently a mess of ground zero time zones, where there are weeks on end when I just go home to sleep only.

My time spent

Out of 168 hours:

Unescapable Timings:
1) SAF - 60 hours
2) Travelling - 14 hours (i'm not kidding. 90 mins travel to camp, 90 mins travel from camp.)
3) Sleeping - 49 hours
4) Dinner - 7 hours
5) Church - 5 hours
Total : 135 hours

Left: 33 hours

Essential Timings :
1) Band Practice - 9 hours
2) Gym - 3 hours
3) Swimming - 3 hours
4) Admin Time (Email, Writing etc) - 3 hours
Total : 18 hours

Left : 15 hours

Untabulatable Timings :
1) Alvin - 10 hours
2) Studying - 5 hours

Ten hours?

TEN HOURS FOR A RELATIONSHIP?

yeah... I understand how he can get so pissed of with me sometimes... even if I spend the remaining of all my time left on him, its 15 hours at the most.

*cries*

sigh.... dear... don't be angry with me k...

sorry sorry sorry...

I... really love you...











I'm so sorry...











.... *cries*